im living with lies
im sorry that i’d lie. im sorry im loving the things you hate. im sorry im doing so many things i love behind your back but i have no choice because i love what i am doing and it kills to just stop for one second. i am seriously. im crazy over songs, over singing, over guitar, over gigs, over performing, over him too. you may hate it but im sorry, im going to do all of them. i can listen to whatever you say but please let me have a say in my life.
him. right. some may know =) but ya. idk. hahas. really weird feeling. hannah can understand. but she has more balls than me because she dares to ask him out and she’s taking her chances. that’s good.
this whole week of jamming was unproductive. with fauzo, with sarvin and hannah. haix. still clueless about the songs to sing yet everyone is asking me to chill. maybe i should like take it easy, but i can only take it easy when we get things done and everything is prepare well and right now, we’re not. with fauzo we have two songs done while hannah, we have songs but not completed like no coordination, no chemistry, no harmonizing and even though we have, we screw up. haix. okay, fenni, breathe! Relax!i may sound unhappy but im actually learning along the way and sometimes, i kinda enjoy the feeling of performing and being with a band. it’s nice. =) really, you should try it.
