February 2010
27 posts
MY VERY LAST POST
I’ve come to my sense but im not giving up what i’ve started.
I know what i want. i need to be me again. I’ve been hiding for too long.
tc everybody not gonna post for a really long time. time to mug bitch!
If there's a reason why im here, it's you
i really want to say thank you to everyone who has supported me all the way since i started writing my first song even though it wasnt all that great. and if it wasnt for you guys, i wouldnt have dreamt bigger and done things that i’ve never once had the guts to do. thank you!!
just felt like saying
i have no reason to run away. i need to face it. just hope things will be okay.
Sometimes people lie just to make you feel better
it was actually kinda bad. lol.
sometimes, if you put your heart into something, you might exceed even if it involves climbing over a million mountain. So, i believe i can! no matter what i do.
also, i need to kick out the bad habit of writing the conclusion on my own without hearing from the party. i need to learn to listen and not stop being so judgmental.
nothing to say
just shut up
comparison is better than none
if you are being compared, at least you have a chance to be the best in future.
i cant stop saying him! hahahas.
anyway, i went to drill hole into my guitar at peninsula, went library@esplanade to spam jason marz song which i still fail to be able to sing after one day and headed to the concourse for an amazing acoustic gig put up by cove red.
it’s amazing how fast local bands are...
im living with lies
im sorry that i’d lie. im sorry im loving the things you hate. im sorry im doing so many things i love behind your back but i have no choice because i love what i am doing and it kills to just stop for one second. i am seriously. im crazy over songs, over singing, over guitar, over gigs, over performing, over him too. you may hate it but im sorry, im going to do all of them. i can listen to...
Weird valentine and CNY celebration
okay, technically i didnt celebrate CNY nor V’day yesterday. firstly, no valentine and secondly, i was not in the mood.
recording rocks! but yesterday didnt record any, just practiced a very emotional song by katy perry - thinking of you. in the end, both of us were kinda moody.went to kexin’s place for steamboat and i was dead full. and guess what, i won $2.50 for the first time in...
On a brighter note,
annescreamsmonster:
I was listening to a full-on Mika playlist last night. Now his concert is showing on tv. YAY. Great vday gift hahahah. ^^
okay. i just reached home. it’s 7.14am now and im yawning.slacked with fauzo @ bedok area just now. okay spent like 15 hours with him yesterday since 11am. ahhahas. cant believe i’ve known hime for only 23 days and 11 hours since the songwriters-singers meet up. talked shit and i fell asleep after eating oily oily stuff!! guilty like shit now. oh i realised i didnt spend money on sat....
kissedandtold:
Everywhere - Michelle Branch
IT’S VALENTINE’S DAY!! and it’s...
Im Starving..
past few days have been starving myself like not because i want it but because im sacrificing my meal for something greater in my life and i am serious. Just say good job and keep it up instead of asking me not to starve because i have no choice. =)
cant believe sarvin said im muscular when im seriously not. lol.
anyway, today’s jamming was really slacker than the previous weeks because we...
I KNOW IM NOT NICE
im really tired of going to school, doing things that i hate. seriously. im not happy. i just wish i can leave the school and start working towards my planned dream. i know i can reach there one day. i am pursuing my dream. literally.
I cant explain how i am feeling now.
I think im a biatch and i cant do anything right.
I KNOW IM NOT NICE. SORRY BUT THAT’S THE WAY I AM.
Seriously, i dont...
i am really in one hell of shit!
so many things i wanna say but i cant!
tmr im having a gp test and here i am tumblr-ing. okay, i shall stop being so emo-tic and start writing some good stuff.
i went shopping today and someone bought me a 15 bucks necklace. hohohoho! hello, i didnt mean to bug for it. i pierced my ear too! i need two more!! perfect!! =)
cant believe my brother actually pierced his tongue! It looks kinda...
I hate dilemmas!
i have lots of them! ARHG!! cant believe now im comtemplating again even though i’ve the money! Dont know what should i do!! GOD TELL ME!! i know you wont. i need to figure out on my own.. okay! think think think so many things through my mind. nothing concerning my studies.. that s bad!!
i cant stand it!!
i cant do the things i love openly!! i need to be so secretive!!
gosh! should i just continue this way.. ahrX! DESPERATE!
why are you always like that?? it s kinda irritating. not in a bad way. but arhg!
i cant believe im experiencing this again.
THANKS TO THOSE WHO CAME FOR threeway|miracles’ performance YESTERDAY!! really meanS alot!
SPECIAL THANKS TO ANDY WHO HELPED US WITH THE BASS!! MILLION THANKS!!AND THANKS FOR HELPING US WITH ALL THE TUNING AND ARRANGEMENT AND DISTORTION AND ALL WHEN WE WERE LIKE IDIOTS TRYING TO FIGURE THEM OUT! SO HUGE THANKS TO YOU!!
IF YOU’RE READING! WE’LL HAVE A FACEBOOK DEDICATION FOR...
BREATHE
if i just breathe let it feel the space between, everything is alright.
sometimes the problem does not lie on me.
lesson learnt: dont ever cancel out on others ever!
F Day
My mind was swirling throughout the day. i felt dizzy, nauseous and restless. i kept complaining and blaming the teachers and all about everything! i felt so fcuked up even though they werent wrong. i hate the truth because it’s always me being the fault.
it’s not i dont want to study. i just cant! i tried so many times. and i thought it was because i dont have a tough cca to make me...
my dream
now’s not the time.
im done with this game
can people stick to the plan. lol
RECORDING ROCKS
it’s all about the process. The feeling of every beat and rhythm. Being engrossed into your music. Losing track of time, you just kept on recording and recording and you didnt know three hours had past. then you felt hungry and the sudden urge to write a song. Random music and lyrics just made a song. Woosh.. really fun. especially when you two listen to different genres of song. it really...
January 2010
23 posts
What's my worth on earth?
sometimes, i just feel that the presence of me on earth is just negligible.
i feel im of low value, of no significance to anyone. sometimes, i feel that i was not meant to be on this earth.
i want to do something big. people notice me. people know what i can do. but im just not ready.
BLOODY DAY TODAY
After three months
ARHG!! i hate emo-ing.
god. nothing is going right these few days. i’ve been so lethargic. and stressed out over something not related to studies. idk whether that’s a good thing.
i believe god may have planned out everything for us in future but it’s up to us to change the our fate. i dont want to be end up doing things he planned but i dislike.
i need to...
im sick and tired of playing the same old things
i need to try something new.
I need to be BETTER and that means PRACTICE.
EMO day for me.
Good wont bring me anywhere!! I need practice. imagine if i’d 48 hours like mrs lim said!!
i m so proud. i didnt take taxi hope. OVERCOME TEMPTATIONS!!! WOOHOOO. still.. far from but target.. nvm.. it’s a compliment.
SOMETIMES IT JUST ISN'T FUNNY
you might think it’d funny to laugh at people that amused you at that moment but it’s really not very nice to make fun of it. it’s really not very nice.
Is it wrong to take my chances sometimes?
i mean i need to have my social network in order to improve and learn things that i am not able to learn alone and to get friends of friends to help me out in terms of finding opportunities. i dont understand what’s wrong with that.
i know my limits but i need to give my best shot.
and I KNOW WHAT I’M DOING FYI!
Dream BIGGER!!
i’ve been thinking a lot lately. and i’ve come to a conclusion.
no matter how i cant do things simultaneously, i have to give it a try. i need to have faith and discipline in myself. all the best to me!
there's a reason why we plan, so that we dont...
seriously, i mean. it’s totally different thing from what i used to do. i knew something like this will happen again. i knew it again! seriously, one more time, im done.
“What unlocks the win?? BEING BETTER.”
– tv show: make it or break it
A song written in 30min is a song for life, always remembered.
i wonder what am i really doing with my life. i used to study like crazy because i wanted to get good grades and be proud of myself, however, now, i’ve found something else that i am proud of doing even though im not up there yet. What am i supposed to do? Tell me.
I really appreciate that my friends offered to lend me money...
dare to dream
i dont have what it takes to be someone so brave and someone who is willing to give up everything for music.
life is real and i have to be realistic. you know i dont mind doing barter trade to get myself into music school. i hate it when money is everything that is stopping me from pursuing my dream.im saving money for vocal lessons and waiting for opportunity to get into diploma course for...
i knew something like this will happen. might as well dont join.
WOosh!! im getting it! hopefully. confidence is all i need!
oh oh.. block test next week. okok. night!! im so tired.
OMG!! Fenni you are such a genius!! yeah. thought of what to do for her!! hahahhas!! Cant wait to start!! YEEPEE! It’ll be great!
im still finding my reflection.
larhslarhs..
it’s addictive and unique, so just appreciate the beauty of it.
nothing’s better than hugging my guitar to sleep (okay, im just joking!)
i desperately want a camera! but i need to save money for paramore concert! Arhs!
wow! finally sat has arrived!! really looking forward to jamming today! it s a huge thing for me. Just the thought of standing in front of 440 people makes me nervoud. but i know i have to do this.
Im so watching a movie tmr!! heeheex. Ooo. maybe getting shoes with kexin tmr.
Did i mention im going paramore’s concert? YES INDEED!!
Oh, he’s right. im too young to invest and there s no point going for fixed deposit or savings. after A level and when im out working then i shall worry about such things.
okay, i just written a song. not so happy song but i think it s not bad. it s...
why do people watch movies, tv shows and dramas? Is it really just for entertainment, for knowledge? i dont think so. I think sometimes people watch because it gives them hope and a place where they can relate themselves to and to be a part of the show. i mean that s why i love to watch movies and tv shows. some good shows make us think, make us realise things about life that normal daily life...
unrealistic dream of mine
im just going for it!! even though i know i’ll fall badly, at least i learn. hear what professionals say. you never know what the result might turn out to be.
i can do this!
First day of 2010, how do i feel? normal
What’s the first thing you do on the first day of 2010? i was sleeping
Who was the first person you saw? my brother who freaking came home at 7.30am and woke me up.
Who did you have breakfast with? my dad
what did you do? Went smu to study which was not so productive.
My resolution?
- save money without fixed deposit
- try to participate more...